Phaced = Phase Faced
I have had a very long holiday. I love holidays, it’s a period of transistion from me to a better me. I could play as much as I want to, game as much as I want to, read as much as I want to, plan as and when I need to. To think and not to think all day long. To operate in a somewhat relax mood =D
The thing that hit me the most was that I didn’t get into any of the local Uni, I was devastated! It was as though my world was crumbling down. The only glimmer of hope dashed in an instant. My injuries was here, there… I injured my kua, it was further aggravated by the run suggested by my flight to rejection. My vision turned myopic. It was as though total rejection hit me all over. I lost my drive to compete in nationals. I could not have gotten back on my feet if not for my friend Hui Ying. Sounds kind of cliches, yea I know but it was from there that I drew the energy to pick myself up.
Let me rattle this for the last time: My life was in a mess, I thought. The RMIT which I next held hope for appeared to be a 3 year course instead of 2 even though there are many similar modules I’ve taken. My course was not found in the list of relevant diplomas which could grant a 1 year exemption, reason being mine’s a new course. WTS! 35k instead of 28k is a lot of money! The factors that deterred my liking to this school and this course: 1) it’s an okay institution 2) gonna have to pay 7k more??? 3) to study something that I’ll dread studying since I’ve studied it already. The second option to private U was University of Adelaide. Having heard from my learned lecturer that a one year degree programme may not be dersirable to prospective employers, I decided to forgo the package I had. The last and hopeful option was then to enroll into University College, Dublin under Kaplan. The downsides was that I might not be able to enter, who knows? there was no aggregate stated, and even though I think that my diploma offer relevance to this degree course, the school may think otherwise. This degree is offered only to relevant studies and therefore spans only 2 years. And this enrolment, outcome is the last of the last meaning I forgo the rest to get here.
My academia was on the line, my injuries deteriorated with competition just around the corner. My moral and my spirit diminished, my drive ceased to exists. Just when I thought I got stucked in this rut. I was being pulled. The words of encouragement gave new perspective to the pessimistic world I saw. I found hope somehow, somewhere, I just needed to get myself out and up. Bit by bit adjusting my mentality, my emotions and my glasses, I bounced back to life. And since then things took a change, for the better….
I bagged a sliver for my broadsword event in the nationals. Luck somehow claimed it. Casting all options aside I went for Dublin, ignoring all else, fine-tuned to ’happy mentality’ and off to ZhangJiaJie. Learn a little of cudgel, learn some shuang jian =D We got ‘promoted’ to Assistant Coaches. I got accepted into Dublin, after a wait so long. I went to work as a telephone surveyor with my brother for 3 days. Actually 2, coz I went to M’sia to see zhong yi. I passed BTT. I signed up for NCAP with Hui Ying, it fits perfectly into my schedule! School’s after NCAP (y) Jian Siong introduced me the Flyer Distributor job, which I took on for about 2 months. We only accepted weekdays. I was able to absent myself for my other appoinments (what great flexibility!) Intially when I phoned the recruitment agency for the postition of a Flyer Distributor, the recruiter found me over-qualified and offered me an admin job, but nah, I don’t wish to be desk bound nor commited to slog my guts out when I could settle for something more flexible, less stressful and with relatively good pay. I got to work on the Presidential Elections setting up and tearing down of polling booths for 2 days. I accepted the milk job, also by Jian Siong, a few months back, and so in the month of September I was working for 7 days a week, seeing my bro everyday! Considering the considerably short working hours, the nature of the job, the company of yellowbear and my books, it was manageable. I’m able to attend trainings and even have L4D sessions whenever we’ve got time to pass. We got accredited and are now HR Associates. Then I thought I should stop working, let me do my stuff while I take NCAP…
This one long holiday has its downs and ups. I trained hard, I got injured, I received rejection letter, I teared, I don’t know what to do, I cried, I fell down, I got up, I planned my route, I questioned myself, I went to teach, I went to work, I have learnt alot, if not educational, at least I’ve learnt some things and more things about myself. Not forgetting to mention the happy, birthday celebrations, the movie outings, close friends outings, the jiti trg, and that supper we laughed so hard.
I laugh and smile and am thankful for all that happened, they happened for a reason and have made me a better person =)
